I'm one of those people that goes all out gusto and then burns out like a match in the wind.
My field travelling hubby?
Steady-eady. Consistently pushing through. Plans ahead, schedules events and reminders, even sets his alarm. He approaches this with pretty much everything. When we dated, he took his time saying I love you. He proposed when he was ready. He thought long and hard about moving us to Portland. His timing is impeccable, probably because it's thought out.
Me, on the other hand, I'm a racer. I race through everything. I see how much I can get done and how fast I can do it. I compete with myself. I litterally cram as much as I can into as little as I have and maximize everything until one day... I burst into tears and say I can't keep this up.
One of the reasons I stopped writing over my 2 month hiatus was so that I could give myself even a few more minutes of time during the week to do other things.
Like work. More. Every day. Ew.
I can't keep this up.
Sometimes it's worth it to keep up with a hobby so you can abide, enjoy and recharge those juices before the alarm sounds the very next morning. Sometimes it's worth delaying an email or two (or 15!) so you can hit the gym and energize your spirits. Sometimes it worth it forgoing your phone and being engaged and present with the one whom you'll grow old with. Sometimes its worth it, so you can keep up with the life and the place God put you in right now. Sometimes it's worth it.
I'm still learning how to do this. But over my 2 month hiatus, I realized...
I can't keep this up. And it's okay.
As I press on towards the goal to reach the prize in which I'm called to in Christ Jesus... I must be steadfast and consistent in order to do so.
So here's to turning over a new leaf in being consistently okay with having an open schedule. With being okay to relax the standards I've created for myself in my mind. Being okay with not keeping up-- while maintaining excellence. This will be a challenge for me.
Thank you for joining me on my 2 month hiatus. This concludes the series, and I'm grateful you've shared it with me! Stay tuned for more travelling stories, house adventures and budget blunders. Thanks for reading!